dear small group...

So I was looking through some prayer requests from small group last week...


Prayer request from a small group member:
"that my personal passion would always exceed my public passion"


dear small group,
I love you. thank you for being awesome.

oh and you're a bunch of jerks because you just dropped a ton of bricks on my face...

*heart*
-dave


I'm kidding about them being jerks. They definitely aren't at all.


"personal passion always exceeding public passion..."

Maybe that's why I have such a hard time posting on here sometimes. It's really easy to make something sound good on here and do things in public that seem good (and could very well be good). It's not so easy to remain passionate about what I say and do sometimes.

Sometimes I feel kinda like a sophist on here with no purpose but to sound right or win an argument or to impress someone. I've written whole posts and then deleted them because they just left bad tastes in my mouth.

And it's not just limited to on my blog. This prayer request is equally as important(ok i think more so...) to life outside of the internet. I mean, I got to speak about Darfur in the Residence Hall last week after a showing of Hotel Rwanda. But I hadn't checked up on the Darfur situation more than once in like 2 weeks...

how much do I really care?

I think that prayer request was a challenge to me to see if my heart is truly set on God as I am seeing my planner fill up with more and more stuff.

My words and actions don't mean much if my heart isn't there.

you guys rule. have a great day
-dave