Look at the stars-- look how they shine for You

I went golfing last night with the Turner twins. It was spectacular. Two words: DYNA TOUR!!!! lol It was so much fun to get to go golfing with two amazing people. I played like feces, but I loved every minute of the time spent out on the course. The night ended with Dominos Pizza, a movie that I have yet to see all the way through (it's a surprise), and some straight coffee at around 11:00 at night. Healthy? I think not. Fun? Yes!

After everyone left, I laid outside and looked up at the stars. I just sat there. God is so much bigger than I am. So much bigger... it just kind of blows my mind that I would try to understand Him. I will never understand Him.

Now, saying this is all well and good. God is huge, blah blah blah. (acknowledges with lips, moves on with lifestyle). Applying God's hugeness (is that a word?) to my life is something completely different. Sometimes I know that I get caught up in guessing God's will. Along with that, I become afraid that I will suffer.
Ok, so now apply these things together---God is huge, and I'm kind of confused at His will, what it means, why it is what it is, and what the crap.

So, what should I say?

I think I may have learned this week that I should say "yes." I should be so caught up in wanting to do the will of God that I do not have time for sympathy for myself or my feeble "logic."

"No normal, healthy saint ever chooses suffering; he simply chooses God's will, just as Jesus did, whether it means suffering or not..."

so why would I want pity from anyone during my times of suffering? I should rejoice!

"we must be merciful to God's reputation. It is easy for us to tarnish God's character because he never argues back; He never tries to defend or vindicate Himself. Jesus did not need sympathy during His life on earth. He refused sympathy of people because in His great wisdom He knew that no one on earth understood His purpose...."

Quick note: I don't know if I ever really know what's going on. And that's ok. We don't need to. Resting in God's love and purpose is enough.

"Look at God's incredible waste of His saints, according to the world's judgment. God seems to plant His saints in the most useless places. And we say, 'God intends for me to be here because I am so useful to Him.' Yet Jesus never measured His life by how or where He was of the greatest use. God places His saints where they will bring the most glory to Him and we are totally incapable of judging where that may be."
-the quotes were from "my utmost for his highest"- by Oswald Chambers

God is huge. Look at the stars and try to say otherwise. I surely do not have control over the sky or the sea. But He does...and I can, and should, be ok with following His will, regardless of what it means. If He can set this huge earth into motion, could He not lead His tiny mounds of flesh that He loves so much to the place where they will glorify Him the most?

He is so big and I am so....tiny.....



Have a great day guys
-Dave